The only thing on my mind is next weekend and how its going to go. I have more feelings for you than i thought my fucked up self could imagine. This could be us. This is what i want.
Its almost 5 months since ive seen you. I have talked to you maybe 3 or 4 times in the past 3 months. I have moved on but now its time for my thoughts of you to do the same. Goodbye. Have a good life in someone elses thoughts and memories.
Love like this is real to me. It makes so much sense. A girl in my past keeps coming in my head right now, which is weird because she was never even my girlfriend. But since i ruined my chance with her, shes in my head atleast an hour a day. And she doesn't even know. Funny the way things happen in life. When i think of this girl i think of the line, "But everything means nothing, if i ain't got you." It makes complete and perfect sense because i really do feel as though if i had her i wouldn't care about anything else in life. Wow wrighting this what the hell am i doing, when i see her in two weeks she needs to know this. It is weird to me how Maroon 5's New album literally describes my love life with everything girl and every feeling i have ever had. Every song reminds me of a different situation. I can't stop listening to it. If i could go back in time to the relationship i was in a year ago and i heard this song, "How" by Maroon 5 I would scream it at the top of my fucking lungs to my girlfriend at the time. Every word.
This is my favorite show. I got my roomate hooked aswell. I cant wait to go home this weekend and make my dad watch it.
It's weird that i feel like me and Dexter have so much in common. Actually a whole lot. Expect, im not a serial killer.
Sunday, October 3, 2010
I want a girlfriend like this. I want the new feeling with a girl. ive dated two girls in the past three weeks and felt nothing with each one. I want to feel something with someone. I wanna date a girl whose beauty amazes me. I want a girl like Mila Fucking Kunis