I never thought about you much till im broken down and all alone

Im trying to be productive. Instead im writing this blog. I need to do well in school this semester. I would say last year my effort level was about 20 percent, and i got a 2.4. This year my effort level is about a 30 percent so im guessing im going to get around a 2.5. I need a 3.0 i dont know why, but i do. I have a lot on my mind but instead i need to do this extra credit for marketing on a lecture i went to the first two minutes of grabbed sheets for the essay and left. I guess im at about a 27 percent effort level this year. If i keep procrastinating through the day my life is never going to change. Wow that hit hard, bye.

On a lighter note, the new maroon 5 CD is phenominal, the words are everything my ex girlfriend needs to hear.

I dont know why

Ryan Reynolds. I want to be you. Outside, inside, everything.

Lost

I'm trying to not let live get to me anymore. Ill go through phases where it works and then one minute later i cant stop over thinking. Everything is an extra thought then it should be. Paranoia should be my middle name. Really it should, this needs to end.

Its Been a Few Days

One: I dont think that anyone even follows my blog. Two: Ive been at college for exactly One Week and Four days. And surprisingly I am loving it. Just something about it. Something is different about me, im more confident then ive been in months and im starting to feel content with myself. I feel like all my life is missing at the moment is something to learn more about myself with. Someone who has the same characteristics and personalities as me. Someone who gets me better then i get myself. Someone who understands me more than i understand myself because i dont think thats possible. I think when i finally feel that understanding i will be in love. I haven't reached that yet in my life. I will. I know i will.