DeadHead

I'm use to it now. Its just a part of every second of my life; That always presence of paranoia. I wonder when it will ever go away. A lot of me doesn't think it ever will. On a lighter note, I want to write about something positive, in which readers would want to read, but i also want to write about what is on my mind. So in regards to the "On a lighter note", nothing seems to be light right now. Infact my life seems to be heavy. Or at least what goes on inside my head. It feels as though my head is a giant weight, in which i spend my day trying to keep it up. That weight being all of my thoughts and over thinking that goes on every second of my life. Many would think that with so many thoughts in my head, i would be able to get my work done. It is actually the opposite. These thoughts are taking over my life. These thoughts consist of me believing that something is going on that others know of but that i am not aware of. It is very bizarre but has gone on for months now and if anything has only gotten worse. Hopefully my next post will involve something less bizzare and weird, but probably not.

What if

What if i was wrong and you never questioned it? What if it was true that all we thought was right, was wrong?







By the way im going to start blogging again.

Lifes about to change.

Inspiration

Favorite Band of all time.

Dear Brand New,

You’ve been my favorite band for a long long time,
From the Shower Scene to Play Crack the Sky.
From Jesus Christ to Bought A Bride,
Your music has always been at my side.

From Sowing Season toms to Lucabombs
You know I’m a sucker for all of your songs.
I’ve screamed “You Won’t Know” at the top of my lungs
And mistakenly downloaded “The Break-Up Song.”

But highs and lows, albums or shows,
I know you’ll stay with me wherever I go.
On this warm college bed, when my head feels like lead
Or on a sinking ship off the Montauk coast.

So Jesse, Fight Off The Demons Raging Inside of You.
Vinnie, don’t mind the ‘Handcuffs’ jokes.
Garret, Brian, and Derrick, you guys are cool too,
Though I don’t know much about you folks.
If I tried to put the fire out that your music started in my heart…
Well, you know the rest. Guys, you’re the best, even if you never reach the top of the charts.

You screamed at me once that Glory Fades
But I hope that isn’t true for you.
Because honestly guys, this poem can’t come close
To how much I care about you.

Love,

This is awesome.

Theres a lot more to life then what you have planned

Question.

Was letting you back into my life again a mistake, or a better beginning

Jesus Christ, I'm alone again so what did you do those three days you were dead, cause this problems going to last more than the weekend.

Buried.

Would do anything to see this movie.